Be Amazing. Now.

I have an interview today.  Not for a new job, exactly, but for a position in a different department of the library.

There’s no real reason to think I’ll do badly, but I’m still stressing about it, as part of my default setting.

As I told a friend yesterday,  I can’t decide whether it’s good or bad that my old boss will be interviewing me and  whether she’ll think it’s good that I have seventeen years of professional experience under my hat or bad that I’m not young, perky, and  able to create a LibGuide without hitting the help button every three minutes.

Before I could get into the spirit of the thing and spiral into describing every single thing I’ll do to ruin my chances during the interview, she reminded me that I’d given up self-hatred for Lent.*

Damn.

Coincidentally,** Jane had a Self-Esteem assignment due yesterday.

Naturally, she ignored it until Sunday afternoon, because the last thing a twelve-year old wants to do is stand up in front of her peer group and do a five-minute presentation on why she’s an amazing human being, even if the instructions say she’s supposed to introduce a representation of herself to make it marginally less embarrassing.

Because she’s pretty sure someone (everyone) will make sure to explain in great detail why she’s wrong.

Man, we start downplaying our personal value and internalizing worthlessness early, don’t we?

I’ve internalized several decades of the stuff at this point.

Which is why I decided to prepare for my interview by doing Jane’s assignment, too, with a couple of modifications.*** Because if I’m going to sit in front of a fairly intimidating former supervisor—who knows aaaaall of my workpace quirks and foibles—and explain why I’m the best choice for this position, I’m going to need all the awesome I can feel.

And let me tell you, this exercise was extremely difficult.

I knew that I didn’t have to share any of my statements—I had a filler post all ready—and I still had problems writing things like “why I’m a good friend”.   I had a hell of a time even typing that previous sentence without cringing or adding modifiers like “sometimes”, “almost”, or “occasionally”. Or taking our the word “good” altogether.

Because, you know . . . maybe . . .  I’m not a good friend all the time. Or even most of the time. I remember one time I didn’t even—I mean, it’s not really for me to say, right?  Why are my shoulders hunched?

Holy flippin’ cow, why is it so hard to let ourselves be awesome?

Why can’t we just be awesome for a single moment without making a joke out of it, or ducking imaginary rotten tomatoes, or tossing them at ourselves to save the trolls the trouble?

We don’t even have to be awesome all the time—just for a moment.  And then maybe we could be awesome again for one more moment. And then another one.

Until we’ve built up the ability to be awesome for a whole series of moments—like self-worth Kegels or something.

You know what I mean.

Let’s all just be awesome in the moment and fill in the damn answers.

Who’s with me?

________________________

INTRODUCING THE AMAZING _______________________ . . . AN INSIDE LOOK!

You must include a physical representation of yourself: a large picture, life-sized cutout, 3D head, recreation of you, mannequin dressed and you, or anything that can be YOU!

Card with glasses

Note the Purple Glasses of Awesome.

Topics you should cover:

• My best physical feature:

My eyes.  They’re green, like my mothers’.

• My greatest athletic ability:

I can belly dance.  My Camel Walk and Shimmy are especially awesome.

• My most amazing social quality:

I can strike up conversations with almost anyone.

• “I am a genius at . . . “

Making up lyrics to other people’s songs.

• “I am a good friend because . . .”

I listen and I can keep a secret.

• one awesome thing about my family:

We sing made-up operas together in the car.

• after high school retirement, I’m going to . . .

Spend the whole summer at the Shakespeare Festival in Stratford, Ontario

• My proudest moment

When someone told me she’d stayed up until 4am to finish a story I’d written.

But only because I’m always proud of my kids—that’s a constant, not a moment.

• My greatest academic quality

I have no written test anxiety whatsoever.

• My favorite activity

Laughing with my kids.

• My most amazing accomplishment

I’d say “childbirth”, but I also once beat a Marine in a fencing match.

• almost nobody knows that I. . .

Used to make stuffed animals for extra cash in grad school.  Made a llama once, with eyelashes and everything.

• non-school work related activities that I love to do are . . .

Reading, cooking, eating, singing to the radio, writing, watching British game shows, blogging, napping, hanging with my kids . . .

• I’m awesome, because . . .

I’m the only one of me there will ever be.

• When I’m an adult, I’m going to have the amazing job of . . .

Writing for a living.

 ____________

There.  Whew.

Feel free to put yours in the comments, if you want.

Or not.  You don’t have to.

I already know you’re awesome.

___________

*Also dieting and abstinence.  St. Augustine would approve.

**Or not, depending on your views toward the mysterious ways the deity of your choice moves or the inevitable way the random generator of the universe sometimes throws a double.

***I changed some of the questions because I’m already doing what I’m doing after high school, and so on.  You’re supposed to supply four objects that say something about you, but I’m substituting four years worth of blog entries. And, as mentioned above, you’re supposed to use the physical representation of yourself as the awesome “person” you’re introducing.  It is easier that way . . . but maybe it shouldn’t be. So I ignored that bit, too.

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13 thoughts on “Be Amazing. Now.

  1. My best physical feature: height. Not too tall, not too short.
    My greatest athletic ability: Frisbee. I once won the state 12 & under frisbee championship.
    My most amazing social quality: I can usually bring VERY different people together to have a really good time.
    I am a genius at . . . List making. I can make a list for anything.
    I am a good friend because . . I make no judgements. And I usually know what you’re thinking, because I am thinking it too!
    One awesome thing about my family: We are voracious readers.
    After retirement, I’m going to . . . travel, read, and spend time with people. (I’d like to do more of that even before I retire, though) (And can I go to the Shakespeare festival with you?)
    My proudest moment: College graduation. I nearly gave up many times, but I’m glad I stuck it out.
    My greatest academic quality: Even if I don’t know the answer, I can usually figure out how to find it.
    My favorite activity: Making music. I may not be the best musician, but I love the process.
    My most amazing accomplishment: Designing and building our house with my husband.
    Almost nobody knows that I. . . HATE to have my feet touched.
    Non-work related activities that I love to do are . . . read, play the trumpet, cook, fish, people watch. (speaking of British game shows, I just discovered Qi with Stephen Fry – hilarious!)
    I’m awesome, because . . . I am the best me I know how to be.
    When I’m an adult, I’m going to have the amazing job of . . . Reading for fun and pleasure!

    Best of luck on the new job prospect. We’re finally on the downhill side of several new positions being filled. Lots of on-site interviews in the next month or so. Should be interesting.

    • You are totally awesome, Dee! ❤

      We are SO going to the Shakespeare Festival together, Dee! Synchronize retirements . . . NOW!

      You designed your HOUSE? Is there a moat and a drawbridge and dormers and a Butler's pantry? 'Cause my house designs always have 'em.

      QI is one of my favorite shows. I have a total, unashamed braincrush on Mr. Fry nd half the regulars. :).

      Thank you! We just lost our new director after only two years, so it's back to interviews. We still need a reference supervisor, too, but no one wanted it while the new director was there (we had a LOT of retirements). I'll know about my interview by early next week, I think . . . Still haven't told my new supervisor I applied.

      • It was kind of a paper dolls design. We had a basic outline of where we thought we could put the house, and then I cut and pasted until we came up with a working design. Lots of things to think about when you do it, but you can make things the way you want them. Everything we NEED to have is on one level. I have a huge walk-in pantry and a very large storage room, 4 foot wide hallways and 3 foot wide doorways. Loads of ceramic tile and a bit of hardwood. You’ll have to come and visit some time! There is also a lot of room for kids to run around and use up spare energy. We still have some things to finish, but it’s about as perfect as we could make it (since I can’t really afford servants). The moat only exists during rainy seasons.

  2. First, I think it’s a little disingenuous for you to post the Qhearts card (cool purple glass notwithstanding)…unless of course you actually look like the Queen.

    My best physical feature: I’ve been told my legs are nice.
    My greatest athletic ability: Wii tennis.
    My most amazing social quality: I’m a great listener.
    I am a genius at . . . trivial bits of knowledge.
    I am a good friend because . . I am loyal…
    One awesome thing about my family: We are great at coming up with catch-phrases to describe family events – so, they’re only funny to us.
    After retirement, I’m going to . . . travel, teach, write, perhaps open a bed and breakfast.
    My proudest moment: The day I was notified that I was a published author in a peer-reviewed journal…somehow that validated my career choice.
    My greatest academic quality: dogged determination to interpret, understand and explain results
    My favorite activity: Music and making bread
    My most amazing accomplishment: (just for fun) Arranging a choral piece from just a recording, then teaching it to a church choir. I may be musical, but I’ve had no serious education in how to do stuff like that.
    Almost nobody knows that I. . . I am skilled at lip-reading.
    Non-work related activities that I love to do are . . . write(duh), music (listen, play, sing), bake bread, refinish furniture, watch baseball games, seek out new trivial bits of knowledge (history, pop culture, science, cooking, etc)
    I’m awesome, because . . .that’s just the way it is.
    When I’m an adult, I’m going to have the amazing job of . . . poet in residence.

    I hope the interview goes well, and that the new position is what you want and need.

    • I totally look like the queen, John. ‘Cause I’m amazing. 😉

      And so are you! That’s just the way it is.

      I don’t know as I’ve ever seen your legs in your Facebook images, but I like your nose.

      I’m in awe of your musical ability—and you know I’m a huge fan of your poetry. Far as I’m concerned, that last statement of yours is already in the bag (or the chapbook).

      Thanks! Me, too . . .

    • It is a good assignment, I think. Jane wasn’t thrilled, but pre-teens mostly aren’t, so . . .

      I think the readers was procrastinating something else she didn’t want to so, but I was happy to help. 🙂

      (Amazing! 😀 )

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